Knight in shining croc.

I have come to realize that this title only directly relates to the black patent crocodile Dooney and Bourke handbag sitting at home in my closet than it does to any man in my life. D&B will wait until I get home, D&B won't be mad at me for leaving to Vancouver and it will most definitely not lie to me and leave me stranded to fend for myself on a joyous occasion. We have an agreement, a relationship that means more than any man has ever given to me because it compliments me, it doesn't bring me down and my handbag will always know that I will come back for it and I will not choose anyone else over it, not even a birkin.

My love life came to an abrupt halt today when I realized that the past year and a half has been a lie. Not only did I believe everything that I was told but I also took a dive "head first, fearless"...what a rude awakening it was to me when I realized that I made a huge mistake. Good thing it happened a month ago and I was already over it but what I don't understand is how can a person be so selfish? I will never be able to answer this question because I fell for a person who was; so does that mean I am a victim too or does it mean I am a person who cared too much about someone else and forgot about myself.; I actually lost myself. In the end the only word that comes to mind is betrayal; it is the only way I felt over the past couple of hours but I keep forgetting you warned me.

As I continue my journey, young and free I remember the past that has made me into the person I am today. I stay positive and always remember that the only people that matter are those who treat me right and I forget the ones that don’t. I believe that everything happens for a reason and the reason that this happened is because I encountered a case of wrong identity; he in fact was not my knight in shining armour. I don’t regret ever meeting him, since in my new life, I thrive on being positive so I believe that he has lead me on the path to something great. From now on I will only be inspired by fashion, people, art, music and culture by the way I see it, I will not interpret something or someone based on other opinions because everything in my life should be seen through my eyes; an individual, trying to make something of myself in a world filled with great opportunity.

So as I begin a new life in Vancouver I will devote my time to finding myself because I know that my knight in shining croc is out there waiting for me to find him to complete my perfect outfit...or even to complete me! Until then I will focus on my surroundings, grow within the company of choice and prove to myself that life on my own really isn’t so bad once you get your priorities in line. So for the next few days I will be travelling to Ajax, to do a major cleaning of my past to create a fabulous future for me, myself and I. Actually…let’s call it a tidy…not all of it was so bad, I reunited with a friend who I now realize I couldn’t live my future without and we vowed in the future to never touch a crack heads hand ever again, to smoke cigarettes (not really), to make a complete mess and chase pirates; in translation; have fun!

Knight in shining croc, was inspired by the one and only Marc Jacobs. I watched his show on the plane and his interview has taught me to see everything in my own perspective, have your own interpretations and be successful by simply being yourself and not being so concerned with if people like who you are or what you have done but to be happy and do your own thing. Thanks Marc.

mj.